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:: Thursday, July 31, 2003 ::

Was walking home with Vai today after PE and she was telling me about how school is just ending in about 3 months. Thats pretty darn fast. I can't help looking forward to doing a whole lot of things that I have been keeping on the shelf for the past two years, but then again, wouldn't I miss being in TJC? Missing long lunches at siglap or just sitting around under LT1? I haven't got down to thinking about it in a nostaligic sort of way. But everytime something passes theres a sort of momentary vaccum.
JC life passes too quickly and theres just too little time to absorb everything around.
Yesterday, I just got back my JTC results from Ms Kwan and she was telling me how happy I am this year as compared to the year before. I wanted to tell her sing to her 'I've got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart' song, but she didn't have the time to talk to me about everything under the sun, there were approx 18 other people behind me, so I decided not to hold her up.

Anyway, i'm too tired and I shall continue this some other day

:: Stuffy 7/31/2003 08:31:00 AM [+] ::
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"When I read some of the rules for speaking and writing the
English language correctly...I think-- Any fool can make a rule
And every fool will mind it."
-- Henry David Thoreau (1817-62), American writer,
author, naturalist, "Civil Disobedience," "Walden"

:: Stuffy 7/29/2003 03:25:00 AM [+] ::
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Kevin's last day today before he goes into NS tomorrow. I guess its not such a big fuss when you think about it since hes only going in for a week. But then again I'll be probably seeing him and Mich less often than I already do.

Went to town with Jason to get a few things done. Later we sat down to study for a meagre 2 hours before going to meet the rest of Kevin's friends (YAG) for a 'surprise' gathering. It sure was a surprise for him when he answered the door and ask 'what are you all doing here?' I think that was the 5th time I heard him say that as far as I can remember.

There are two things I learn:
1. To my amusement, Mark (YAG) has a very good habit of keeping his face blemish-free and pimple-free, armed with tissue paper and Oxy5. Place me next to him and I am condemned to the position of a reckless, unkept and grubby five year old. As if that was not bad enough, my eating habits aren't going to help me redeem myself (many can attest to that). Reminds me of Jasmine(TJ), her prime and properness, her time spent paintakingly combing her hair and using i-have-know-idea-what on her face. I think its a discipline, and one which I simply do not have.

2. Its hard to believe that generation gaps exists among people just 5 years older or younger. Not in conversations where ideals and ideas are discussed, rather the childhood experiences seem to vary for each batch or two batches. Possibly two batches. No wonder people seem to think that each batch seems to have distinct qualities of their own, and over time the gap just becomes wider.

Well it was fun and the conversation was enjoyable. Reminds me alot of all the rubbish we use to talk about with my secondary sch gang. It won't be long before they start trodding off to NS too. I wonder how big a fuss we'll make before they disappear behind the barracks for 3 months (except for tat, saved from physical training). The idea of a farewell before NS or going overseas for studies or going off to Timbuktu has never really occured to me, till now. Kinda sad when you think of it.

Why is everything on Global Economy not net-friendly...sigh
*Tired going to bed.

:: Stuffy 7/27/2003 09:21:00 AM [+] ::
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Finally I was able to get my villagephotos up and going and some pictures. Hmm...I should redo my whole blog someday.
Yours, Lazy bum

:: Stuffy 7/24/2003 04:50:00 AM [+] ::
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I felt so infuriated and rebellious, staring straight into space with no purpose and reason for even wanting to be there. When we cannot understand rationale, frustration creeps in, and fury takes over like the metronum pegged down at pesstissimo. My eye muscules felt liked it were being gorged by some internal creature. Logic, what we fail to understand we loathe and we, in all stubborness begin to rebel upon it.

But even that is conflicting.

Extremely sick, tired and weary from conjuring all sorts of theories, Rachael reminded me that God is always there.
Home. I turned to Corinthians 1:4-9, on Thanksgiving:
"I always thank God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. For in him you have been enriched in every way- in all your speaking and in all your knowledge - because our testimony about Christ was confirmed in you......He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful."

Can I live up to that? I need obedience, not rebelliousness.

:: Stuffy 7/21/2003 06:25:00 AM [+] ::
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To make a statement

1.Either Zong Zeng is an exceptionally good salesman or hes just unassumingly earnest. I'm beginning to feel painfully guilty for having to tell him that I just can't go to his piano concert. Wait, I'm feeling terrible mean, sigh. Worst of all was diverting his attention to Mich and I think she felt the same way too. I mean, what would you do if you saw a girl scout selling cookies for charity?
Buy more than you were willing to buy.

2. There comes a point in everyone's life when they realise that they're parents are starting to get senile. It comes when your dearly beloved father, in a fit of irrationality, decides to waste $180 worth of Crabtree and Evelyn's soap just for the free almond biscuits and limited addition giftbox.

3. I was feeling terribly stuffy nosed and half dazed this morning. Julian sat by me today in chapel, but I couldn't think of anything to say to him accept that Joan looked like she blended in with the senior 1 girls. Then came a monstrous silence which drove him off. It got me thinking how exactly should we start a conversation with young juniors whom you only meet weekly and really have nothing in common to talk about. Now I am sure that if strangers can strike up a conversation based on mutual willingness of both parties, I could do the same. But on what? hmm... likes wheres Mark Chai? *rolls eyes

:: Stuffy 7/20/2003 08:28:00 AM [+] ::
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On Jason dancing
In honouring the hype over jason's dance performance this friday, I have decided to write a short commentary on this. (Yes, I have also notified Jay about this too, look below at tagboard for all comments- don't worry, no one said anything nasty.)

I msged Sam and Nadiah the other day about how NASS Choir has brought out the full potential in all its choir members, both in song and dance. Yes, what is song without movement? What is life without breath? To quote from F. Gump, song and dance is like 'peas and carrots'. So I'm sure theres nothing to be suprise about Jason being a multi-talented artiste. I don't suppose its really hard to imagine Jay dancing, after all, the choir musicals which were staged last year and the year before did require some form of bodily expressions. Sadly, I couldn't make it for the performance and that stupid Tat didn't want to go because no one would follow him. Sam is sick, so Nadiah, its up to you to relate the events. (Which reminds me to tell Nadiah that i have a blog) Question which is bugging me right now: Is Jay dancing to Rock, Pop, Jazz, Broadway, Hindi, Rap? How flowery are the costumes?

Anyway, break a leg Jay;) You could be the next best thing in NS Drama and Dance!

:: Stuffy 7/18/2003 03:31:00 AM [+] ::
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Help Wanted
Printer has broken down, need a new printer. Seeking advice on which printer is better, the Cannon BubbleJet or Hewlett Packard Deskjet 5550.

:: Stuffy 7/09/2003 07:30:00 AM [+] ::
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Just writing about...

This pass six days have been absolutely wonderful. And I wish to disregard my previous two entries. What Adrian said on Sunday was right. Why look for miracles when you haven't even embraced the blessings God so abundantly gave to us, so right in front us? And how blessed I have been, not just this pass 6 days, but every day of my entire life and the future of it. Yesterday, today and tomorrow. Everyday

I realised that it wasn't really the conversation that mattered or whether it felt bonding or not. As I recall Ming Hui saying in some Friendship Day message, 'Thank You for your time'. And thats what counts. The time you take from your daily living to be with the people you cared most about. (Just as the time God gives us whenever we call to him in prayer).

Days go by so fast, but I'm glad to have absorbed all of it to the fullest. Yesterday was lovely, the guyz came over to my place for bridge and Wimbledon. It quite reminded me of the other time they came over for a belated-belated house warming party and almost every New Year's Eve spent at my house. After they left, I still had the energy to read my unfinished Wuthering Heights and then proceeded to taking out old photos for no apparent reason. I didn't have time to look back on all of them, but I just took out the house warming photos from last year. I guess its because they were well taken that the memories seemed more vivid. (Thanks to Zhan's camera and his commendable photo shooting skills) It warmed my heart. A good lot they are.

Today, I admit being abit reluctant to pull myself all the way to Sentosa to join the class for beach-outing. But after rattling on and on about my dilemma to Zuck and Zhan while playing bridge, I decided out of female solidarity to the Gulab Jamun sisters' clan, that I should go. It was wonderful, especially when we started playing Captain's ball and everybodyelse joined in. I think too, that I have a very wonderful class with loving classmates who could win the Nobel Peace Prize hands down. (Of course, not all of them.)

Reminders to buy my own hammock.

It makes everyone cringe to think that school starts tomorrow and everyone will be going back to their intellectual studies. But let it come 'as merry as the day is long'.

"What does the worker gain from his toil? I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil - this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does so that men will revere him." Ecclesiastes 3:9-14

:: Stuffy 7/07/2003 07:07:00 AM [+] ::
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Speculations
Mood: Caffeine high and perplexed. Perplexed and Caffeine high. Which one sounds better?

I was sitting at home today enjoying some 'me' time and 'sisterly' time when it just came to me that I'm 17 going on 18. When I was young, my cousins like Alvin and Jason and Kenneth just looked older, and bigger and heavier. How come I don't feel older and bigger. Wait...I take that back, I do feel older, but not any bigger. (Unless I'm infuriated by weasley kids which I want to stomp on) I feel childish now.

I think Vai said something like she wanted to settle down in India and Elson was saying something about getting married at 21(good luck Els). Whoa! The thought of even settling down just about scares the ants out of me as much as Kevin complains about heat. Question: How do you stand seeing one person 24hrs a day and even share the same bed? I can't even stand any breathing being in my room for more than 30hrs. (That includes reasons why I don't let my sister bring Feathers into my room, apart from it shitting around.) People need 'me' time, but thats disregarding the fact that we all need 'people' time too. But we can't have 'people' time all the time. Okay I'm starting to sound like that Fish called Marlin. Question: Is man really a 'giddy thing' as Shakespeare would have him be?

Er...Whatever.

Things to get/do tomorrow:
Hag. Daz Ice cream at Cold Storage going for 2 for $16
Cards for tomorrow night
Remember to keep an eye on phone and not forget to pick the guyz up
Remind dad i'm taking the top floor
Chinese Oral coming soon
Read Hebrews 3 and 4
Ask Adrain about census
Return Ruben's call

Okay, Dad just came home

:: Stuffy 7/05/2003 08:38:00 AM [+] ::
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People are just getting weirder and weirder by the day, Ruhan just sent me some pictures taken during our June Common Test trauma...geeez, I didn't even realise a camera being in existence during that week...

:: Stuffy 7/05/2003 07:49:00 AM [+] ::
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Music: What a wonderful world(Instrumental) - Meet Joe Black Soundtrack
Thought of the day: G. Crefield is a me-andering be-ach, argh! Justice to break her sword! Andre D. Cruz should be on Joe the Millionare, Howard Cheung looks like an ostrich without facial hair.

On Conversation

I just finished my paper on Wenesday, so since then I've been going out quite a bit, with vai and gang, my cousins and jason, joyce and gang, and the guyz(today). I don't know why I feel so...disappointed. I think I was looking for a good conversation, a nice long conversation about anything under the sun, I mean the kind that bond people together. But since wenesday, its really been...disappointing, or at least time passed too fast to do quite about any talking.

Somehow nobody likes to sit at cafes for hours on end talking about stuff anymore. I miss lazing at Starbucks with whoever(mostly Sarah and gang) talking rubbish. I miss those days when I sat with mich at the balcony looking at stars talking rubbish. I miss those days when I hung out at cheap fast food restaurants with the guyz, just sitting there playing dai-dee and what not (now that I know how to play bridge, we'll probably be playing till closing time). Talk about rubbish and more rubbish. Though I always feel a sense of impending doom playing cards at Mc at this age. 16, you're excusable, 18, you're under a different law.

I guess thats because its the middle of the year and everyone has alot of things half-way done; tests, exams, school attachments, opening sch term. Who am I to say I haven't been a victim of time? Rushing from one appointment to another, here, there, up on the roof. But I guess today hasn't been all that bad. It almost was in the afternoon before watching Dumb and Dumberer (retarded show, but Bob S. was good hah.) Everyone was just sitting there reading newspapers, waiting for whatever is to come. Dragging,dragging, it was probably only later when we were at Galilee that we just sat down and started talking like good ol' times. (without the cards). Yeah, I need more of that, more often. But when?

:: Stuffy 7/04/2003 08:24:00 AM [+] ::
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