:: Tossed Salad and Scramble Eggs ::

:: Thursday, June 26, 2003 ::

And then I took out my CD collection of ol' 40s and started playing them, trying to recall the last time I played those...last year, Christmas. Where have I been drifting too? I know the answer, you don't have to tell me.

Its one of those nights when you look at the stars and you wonder of how many thousands and millions of names that God created for his angels and named the stars after them(can someone tell me the verse reference? I can't wait till Sunday to ask Adrian)

"And Billie holiday croons "Blue moon...you saw me standing alone, without a dream in my heart, without a love of my own..."

Imagine

Old portraits on the walls, paintings of countryside. The smell of wood, liquor chocolates and faint fruity smell of champagne, wine glasses tinkling, women in evening gowns and men in tuxedos. The Chandelier brilliantly capturing the the mood, the sea of smiles and the glamour of ladies dripping with diamonds. The sound of saxaphone and light fingers on the piano passing its way slowly through the ball room.

And all you need is Ol' Blue eyes and his warm, rich resonating voice,
"Yes, you're lovely, with your smile so warm and your cheek so soft, there is nothing for me but to love you, and the way you look tonight..."

:: Stuffy 6/26/2003 09:33:00 AM [+] ::
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postdiluvian (post-di-LOO-vee-uhn) adjective

Pertaining to the period after the Biblical flood or any great flood.

noun

Someone or something in the period after the Biblical flood or any
large flood.

[From Latin post- (after) + diluvium (flood), from diluere (to wash away),
from di- + -luere (to wash), combining form of lavere (to wash). Other words
derived from the same root are: deluge, dilute, and lotion.]

A related word is antediluvian (related to the period before the Biblical
flood). It is also used to apply to someone or something very old or
old-fashioned, e.g. antediluvian CEO or antediluvian ideas.
-Anu

"But that was in the good old days. Now, our postdiluvian world is swamped
with hundreds of different kinds of the things ..."
Poseur Index: Rubber Place Mats; The Guardian (London, UK); Mar 20, 1998.

:: Stuffy 6/26/2003 03:18:00 AM [+] ::
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To the Virgins, to make much of Time

GATHER ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old Time is still a-flying:
And this same flower that smiles to-day
To-morrow will be dying.

The glorious lamp of heaven, the sun,
The higher he 's a-getting,
The sooner will his race be run,
And nearer he 's to setting.

That age is best which is the first,
When youth and blood are warmer;
But being spent, the worse, and worst
Times still succeed the former.

Then be not coy, but use your time,
And while ye may, go marry:
For having lost but once your prime,
You may for ever tarry.

dedicated to Sarah (Megs)

:: Stuffy 6/22/2003 07:46:00 AM [+] ::
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New Songs from Matchbox20
Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

- Matchbox20 fan ( this one doesn't sound like their other songs, thats why it sounds better, esp the guitar intro ) =D
Being unromantic again - How do people know that they're becoming mad? I never understand. If you're mad you won't know it because you are irrational. Well, I know I'm not mad.

:: Stuffy 6/21/2003 09:35:00 AM [+] ::
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Musings: I know, I haven't been blogging, well...
Mus|c: Unwell -Matchbox20 & Night and Day - Frank Sinatra 'Like the beat beat beat of the raindrops...'

This week has been fast. Wenesday met up with Xiu Hui to watch A Beautiful Mind at the Stella Artious Open Air Cinema. And Saturday Bus Rally. Just sat there at Labrador Park doing quite about nothing with some ppl from YAG. Scouted around the area, hey, I didn't know they had old forts and bunkers over there too! (slow) I felt a slight teeny-weeny sense of curiousity when I looked at that foreboding tunnel. Too bad its locked. Mich, if I happen to ask you to go to Labrador Park with me one summers day in December, remember to bring some tools. Kelvin (YAG) said that it led up to Fort Siloso. Sounds fun yah?

That aside, it came to me again that I HAVE to decide what to do after A levels. (I'm not quite deciding what to do now anyway, I'll procrastinate). But I quite admire the way Jason can skip school without feeling an overwhelming sense of guilt. Not that I don't feel guilty when I skip school, but sometimes I tend to get paranoid. It depends. But I really admire people who have that ability to take it so free and easy about everything. Michelle was telling me about Jonathan (her friend) and how he walked out of JC lecture and opted for poly instead. Sometimes I wonder what I would be had I gone to poly. Not that I'm unhappy, I love my course, my funky GJ gang and school in general. But despite the grass looking quite about the same on the other side, (I can never tell if it ever has a different shade of green) its just the concept with being bored, and just wanting to know what it'll be like over there. I think hes got a relatively cool life, the kind of life I would like to have if I weren't so uptight, or constrained with 'whats the next test tomorrow'. Kenneth too made decisions he never did regret, and it didn't matter to him if he made the wrong choice, I'm glad hes happily doing what he likes best in Havard. Even when he comes back in July, I know that he'll do something that he alone enjoys, no compromises. Ignoring the consequences, thats something most of us can't do, its a gift and maybe a skill? All that talk about being a tourguide in Disneyland or conquering the Russian market is just as fraud as the Dumas in Tsarist Russia. I would like it to happen, but at the same time, there is so many concerns to think about.(the consequence) How daring would I be to even accomplish such a feat? The 'What If' Syndrome should be used to label my generation. I think this streak runs in my batch, or at least spans over a few years within my generation. Everybody is uptight about almost everything, and when they are, you tend to let yourself be pulled by the tide and conform.

I think being an Arts Student can be hard, not because your job options are limited, actually they really aren't. But, with no remorse in saying this, its quite easy to chose what you want to be with a double math and double science combi- simple- an engineer. Even better, if you're innovative enought, you find the golden pot at the end of the rainbow. So I wasn't pratical when I chose my combi? No, I wasn't. Hmm, maybe thats a start. I don't know, and I can't be bothered actually.

I digress, I'm pondering over the 'What IF' generation. Why is everyone born from 1985-1989 so uptight about everything, from homework to decision making. Its...sad. Last Sunday, Jocyln broke down while we were sharing during church class, I guess it had also been the stress from work, and I sympathised with her. She felt sorry for breaking down, and I wanted to tell her that it really was okay to cry, my class (school) has at least someone who does it every week. Terrible isn't it?
*I must stop here, i'm tired.

:: Stuffy 6/21/2003 09:05:00 AM [+] ::
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MusIc:
Musings: Since when have I started living in this African heat.

I was under LT1 today with Sarita when we picked up the topic on student relationships(BGR). She was telling me how secondary-JC life isn't the right time to be having relationships. How true! We both agreed that theres so much more to do, so much to learn within these 6 years, why waste it on something so risky, something which may not even have the potential to last in the long run? (Sometimes I wish we could agree on things more important like S paper History project conclusions!! lol, of course theres the argument that the world needs opinion and diversity)

School life is about expanding your contact base for future use and reference,(Eng Tat would agree with me) its about knowing all sorts of people, learning from them, enhancing your communication skills and intellectual ability. In such an integrated community as an institution, I think its a good oppurtunity to get to know as many people as possible. Its about establishing a strong social net work (good friends and acquaintances), I'm not saying that we should embrace the whole of humanity, but theres this saying that the people who come from way back are normally the ones who would be still there with you/for you 10 years down the road (thats provided you treat them with respect and don't abuse them). I don't see how investing your time in a relationship would help in that, think of the oppurtunity costs and the risks involved. But of course if you could do both, relationship and socialising beyond the concept of two people, thats something to be commendable.

Of course, isolating yourself from the student population to the extreme is severely ridiculous since you'd be throwing away an oppurtunity that could benefit you for a life time - yes of course, me and sarita are true blue capitalists, i'm sure you've figured that out by now - if you really wanted isolation, then the best recourse would be to quit studying in a government public/private institution and just do home school.

*Off to dinner, pick this up another time

:: Stuffy 6/03/2003 03:28:00 AM [+] ::
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